Continuing

I've been back from my 2 week vacation now for a week. As much as I miss all my friends out of state and had a blast with them on vacation, I missed home. I didn't think I would but there is something comfortable here. I've always been one for leaving Michigan and exploring possibilities in other states, but coming home to my family and my friends here makes me rethink. Of my family, I am the outcast; not in a bad way I don't think. I just think differently. My parents both believe in sticking to something you're good at and are strong believers in safety. They want stability. All the time. This, I think was healthy for me as a kid, but as I grow up I'm not so sure. I want to find things I love. This could be some stable job or who knows, maybe its a program like YWAM or the Peace Corps (Look them up, they are awesome organizations!).  These are things totally unstable. My sister is different even from my parents. She wants to stay here, but have an job that is unconventional in our family. Teaching public or alternative high school. She wants to make a difference. She and I are similar in that way.

So I'm home and continuing. Totally unstable; except for my online class and volunteering. I am going with flow (whatever that means) and being somewhat unexpected. Main priorities are school and friends. I've realized that if I don't ask questions, nothing can come of what I want. This week I will ask my parents about this. Dreams, goals and jobs seem lofty but who knows, maybe they have been here before. I will also ask about a tattoo. There I go, being unexpected.

Sidenote, (Warning: Cheeseball Alert): I had a fantastic 4th of July with my friends! They are so fun, get me and are so similar to me. We always have crazy parties and just love being together. I love them with all my heart and they will always be a part of my life.